Allowing Ourselves to Be

There is  something about this moment-
that I am not okay with.
I feel restless, bored-
a tightness in my belly
A feeling of Blahhhh is inside of me
....
I acknowledge that its there
For so many other times
I avoid any recognition...
and keep doing and keep going

Yet right now
I sit and breath into that space inside my body
where the feeling shows its face
But...
"I"  have to watch out
My thinking mind wants to avoid my presence
and give a story to what I'm feeling
"Nothing is right, I don't like that, It's not right"
Waiting for it to go away
Silently I wait
Yet something else is happening
It is shifting
Not just something to avoid
A dislike
A uncomfortable place to be
Its just a feeling that I acknowledge
I am allowing it to be
No judgements of where I am
Remembering not to get caught in when will it change
Just allowing this place in me to be
As I would hopefully
allow a baby to be.

Received by Stephanie Sarasvati 12/6/2011

Synopsis:
I wrote this poem as I was actually going through the motions.  (not sure if a poem or exercise...lol)  It literally felt like there was a baby inside of me. As I took the time to acknowledge..."I wasn't okay with this moment," it seemed that this emotion (baby) wanted to be heard... wanted space to be... with a little guidance from my inner knowing - when the thoughts would arise, wanting to bother the child (emotion) I would watch it, remember its not true, and give my attention to that emotion.  My feeling was inside my belly.  I kept going back to this place.  It was as if this emotion needed tending to...just space, no rational, no hurrying up to change it, no justifications.  Just a vigilant observer and compassionate listener.  Isn't that what we really want, when we are in some sort of pain.