A Beautiful Obstacle

I have had the experience of awakening
Where the Sun spoke to me with its light
And the wind's breeze carressed my face
Where my body was dancing -
to the drumbeat of life-
wherever it would take me
My heart was open
Love radiated everywhere
Like the Sun
It was a Godly moment
This beautiful moment gave me a taste
of what my soul was looking for

Yet even in this beauty beyond words
Lay the biggest of all obstacles
"The so called block of human consciousness"
For I have hung on to that moment
Looking for that moment
Trying to find myself from that moment
Adding to myself to find that moment
Fixing and healing to find that moment
Learning more to find that moment

And although all is beautiful
The paradox is also what lies in the way
The biggest most beautiful obstacle
For the truth is
I can only find my self 
Right here
Right now
In whatever life may bring
Sometimes the moments may be heavy
Emotions in a fury
I may be tired
Or happy and in joy
Yet the doorway to my soul
Is in this moment
And this moment can have many colors
or none at all
There is no adding to make me complete
When I am one with the Sun
One with the night
One with the warmth
One with the cold
Allowing with being
Nothing else is needed

And yet...
I very much want to say this is the opening
of my self to the light of the Sun
Yet...
It is also opening to the darkest of night

It is opening to everything
and
nothing at all.

Recieved by Stephanie Sarasvati  3/26/2012

Synopsis:
This was influenced by Echart Tolle.  It seems to be part of our human condition that we are always looking out side of our self to find our self.  We do it in so many ways.  But the way of the concious seeker which I fall into this obstacle many a time... is to hold on or the moment needs to look a certain way until I can be me.  A perfect meditation, a blissfull moment.  Yet my self is only ever in this moment.  Right here as I type with my fingers, listen to my breath, feel the sunlight reaching me from the window.  This is the only place it is.  Many times I want to dictate what it should be like, or like that great meditation I had last night.  It just seems to be a perfect reminder as we take our journeys into consciousness.