Finding "The Way"

Moments pass into eternity
as I wonder in what state am I in
I lift a thousand pounds of emotions
Just to say I am not clear
The subtle emotions that linger in me
are a passing
that lingers in time
as I sit here in my chair
I am feeling that common uncomfortable chime
Where do I go dear Lord
to transfer this pain that I carry in me?
I don't even know where it comes from
All I want to do is escape

But then there is something in me
That knows the "work" of the way
what shall I do to make this a gift for me today?
...
After a few breaths
A vision comes to me to be clear
Send the light of consciousness to that emotion
And let that be all that it is
Feel it, be it, see it
And let that be it
Make no stories up
And so shall it dissolve into the midst
For even as you write
you transform - you move the pain
And the light of your consciousness
Will let you know
All is okay.

Received by Stephanie Sarasvati 1/10/11

Synopsis
This poem and in fact all the poetry on this blog, has been inspired by Gurdjieff' and his book "In Search of the Miraculous".   As I sat at my computer desk, I realized that I had a feeling of discomfort.  That has been with me for my whole life.  It showed up as I sat here.  My mentor, (she knows who she is) told me one way to transform suffering is to create.  So here I wrote this poem.  And the teachings of Gurdjieff allowed me to just let the emotion have its space...But catch it before it takes on a story.  You see our stories, or justifications feed our emotions sometimes, and it becomes bigger and bigger.  But I know for sure I did not want it to become bigger.  So here you have it.  I hope this inspires you to catch that emotion when it arises, give it its space, create and be.