I See So I Become Free

I am
Here I am
Right here right now
Accepting the ebb and flow
of all that is in me
all that I observe with my real eyes
and the I's of things once remembered
I sit in a place where I am aware
Aware of my body
and all the prana of life that flows through the cells of my being
And in this awareness my real eyes
see the eyes of thought that seek to know, understand, or reflect on something from the past
It brings itself present through fleeting moments
So instead of trying to block them
or repress them
as if they do not exist
I observe them
My being observes them
Allowing it all
Understanding with Real eyes
letting it travel and digest
so that I am free
Moment to moment
I lose myself in thought
Only to come back to remember who I am
Seeking nothing in this state of grace
Letting the rivers flow take me
Grounding in my inner take of my body
Knowing that each thought must be seen
So that the I who is here
can blossom
and reach its petals closer and closer to the sunlight.

Received by Stephanie Sarasvati 3/6/2011

Synopsis:  This poem is inspired by my morning readatation.  Based on the work of Gurdjieff and one of his students Jeanne D Salzman in the book "The Fourth Way".  Also inspired by my mentor.  She knows who she is.  This poem is a practice.  It is a practice of presence.  It is a process of remembering oneself.   First I split my attention by focusing as I was writing on sensing my body.  This was a grounding to keep me present.  I then with no attachment observed my thoughts that arose and let them fleet away.  I was inspired by the "Work" in remembering that our thoughts are not who we are.  But first we must see them and allow them... and then in the process become free of them.  In the past, I would try and repress and block my thoughts any time they showed up.  Today I allow them, see them, and know they are not who I am.