A Conversation with the One

There are no words that clearly move me
Yet in this moment,
I wish to reach out
Even in my capability of openness
Nothing feels as though it could penetrate
Have you been there?

Miles and miles I've ran
Only to reach the same starting point
Many times I have dissolved into the oblivion of numbing
And again, I find myself at the same root of "this" existence

Waves come crashing in
And I ride them - most of the time
Unknowingly, without eyes
And I go on a trip that takes me far away-
to this place that I am at today

Ohhh God,
I want to do:
Maybe some yoga, meditate, play a game, eat, clean
Anything that will move me from where I am

Write, I write to you to help me
Intervene, so I can remember who I am
I know this is not me
Yet I am frustrated
For all that I do to remember
I do
I do
I do
I am tired of doing
Yet the gifts are there too
I want to surrender to being
Yet, it is not easy to do

I have done everything else-
with rigid applications
But to be,
Well...
Funny as it may be
This is where my soul wants to rest in
Yet the doer
The escaper
Who has been with me...
Well...
For a long time
Needs to re-learn how to be

Yet the child wants to be always happy, peaceful, in joy
Yet is there reality in those wishes?
Pain has always been a load heavy on my shoulders
A far off ride we have traveled together

Ohhhh, I guess my prayer can't be founds in words today
It is the experience in being that I am after

But I need help, maybe even soft intervention
Universe and Love
Haven't you seen my dedication-
despite all my efforts?

Written by Stephanie Sarasvati

Synopsis:
This is a personal conversation with the all knowing oneness, spirit, god, love.  Maybe you have found yourself there, maybe not...but those of us who have, maybe this can be your prayer too.
With love and honesty,
Sarasvati