Conversation with the Ocean

I travel through the tides
Feeling each one
Wishing for mastery
to embrace them all
Deep down in my heart
I know they will lead me home
Yet in the darkest of hours
I still feel alone
Dear sweet ocean
Take me where you may
I know the tide has a higher order to obey
Let me glide wherever I may go
To enjoy the ride
It is truly unknown
Sweet ever changing water
I have to admit
I like when its smooth
Yet the biggest of gifts come
In the movement of storms
For sometimes the jewels
They wash up on the shores
I guess what I really want to say
Is to teach me how to really truly go with the flow
Not with the mental shoulds
Or the mental complaints
Or the mental judgements
Even when I don't say it out loud
Let me feel the currents
and the tides
And embrace them all
After all they are just the ride
And in the essence of all this
Let me know the eye of the storm,
Quiet, no chatter, still
Living with the noise and the chaos
But keeping the inner of my true home
Received by Stephanie Sarasvati Miner/Berger  June 12, 2012

Synopsis:
I know through my intellect to go with the flow.  I know deep inside that each challenge that arises will bare gifts, but I want to practice it with my WHOLE being.  Not just the intellectual side, but the feeling part of me, and the instinctual part of me.  Sometimes I may go with "let me just accept this is a gift, yet I want to feel it totally, emotionally."  I have been observing that my inner world is many times against it...even though I know it.  I guess it seems like a tall order, but I feel reminded, one opportunity at a time, one breath at a time.